Improving

 It was just yesterday, I was scrolling on my blog to check that if the changes I had made in the format were applied successfully, when, I accidentally clicked on the "older posts" option.

It took me all the way back to my earliest posts on my blog, a feeling came to me, a feeling of gratitude, and at the same time a foolish feeling. 

I felt foolish because of the vocabulary, and format in which I had written all those poems, and stories, a memory also flashed in my mind that how I had been really obstinate about publishing all my posts in English, because at that time, I was in school, and in my school, the students were forced to speak English most of the time. I too thought that English was better than Urdu, and I had argued with my mother to translate whatever came to my mind in English so I will post it on my blog, and my mother was constantly trying to explain me that you should write whatever is coming in your mind in the language which you have the vocabulary of, but it didn't made any difference, and in the end my mother had to add a few words to my work on my request, it made me feel even more foolish that how stupid I was to not think out the box, and just relying on English while my strength was Urdu since it was my mother tongue, and that how stubborn I had been to argue with my mother on such a little issue.

The feeling of gratitude came because I came to know how much my vocabulary has improved, how much have I discovered in blogger, you might have noticed that I changed my blog theme, format, font type, etc several times, because I discovered further more options on blogger.

When I had started, I just got a few comments from my parents, and other relatives, but, at that time, they seemed to be enough to keep me motivated.

But, after some time, I stopped receiving any comments, and I got a bit upset about it. You might have noticed that I hadn't been on my blog for nearly three years, well, it wasn't all just because of not receiving any comments, I was also engaged in my school. 

See, I couldn't even spare any time for my blog because of the stress, although I wrote a lot of essays, stories, and other samples at school, but it never occurred to me that I could also post them on my blog.

Then, when covid started, the schools closed down, and I didn't had anything to do in particular, I was free most of the time, when I remembered, "Oh, I also had a blog", that's when I opened it up once again, I posted a poem as a start up, and here I am.

And, yes, I forgot to mention that a few days ago, I received a comment from somebody, and I can't describe how much delighted I felt at the fact that someone really found my blog useful, and that single comment got me pumped up so much, I instantly posted a poem I had long ago wrote, and two more poems came to my head, and I had them posted in no time because I knew that someone out there is eager for new content to be posted.

So, thanks a lot for all your comments, and support to keep me motivated, your comments really make my day.